enigma

our lives are storybooks that we write for ourselves;

wonderfully illustrated by the people we meet.

each new year brings a bit of nostalgia with it.
the hope and joy of something new, something exciting.

i think that is why we make resolutions...
in the hope of making this year better than the last.

i'm usually the last person to make a new year's resolution or if i do,
i start it on feburary 1st. but this year, i'm feeling like doing something different.

maybe it's because of all of the changes this past year.

maybe it's because of life. life is so short and precious.

but mostly it's because of what a friend said to me the other day.

i've been working like crazy lately. the boys feel it.
jack cries every day when i go to work.
molly has been laying across my legs for the past two hours.
dad has been pouting and hiding out in his room.
and then my friend referred to me as an enigma.

i have been m.i.a.

i get it.

i have been so exhausted and the laundry keeps piling up.
i couldn't tell you the last time i've swept the floors.
it is all i can do to get the dishes done, food on the table and the bathroom clean.

thankfully, louie and i were able to make brownies for dessert tonight
and i got some quality "woo woo" and words with friends time in with sam and jack.

this has lead me to my resolution for this year...to not be an enigma!
i resolve to not be "that" friend who is never around.
i will be calling, texting, emailing or going out for coffee
(i could also go for mexican or bread pudding!).

i need the laughter, stories and strength of my friends
if i'm going to make it through this upcoming year.

:)