father's day

it's father's day and my dad didn't even realize it until i said something this morning. and then part of me wished i had kept my mouth shut.

my first clue should have been when he came out wearing william's t-shirt.

then he looked at me with tears in his eyes and said the one thing i have thought many times..."why?"

the worst part of why is that sometimes there is no answer...no answer that can fully suffice everything that you feel at that moment in time. and i don't know how to answer the why for him. i can only reassure him that william is at peace.

and on father's day, that is the last thing he wants to hear.

as i'm typing this, the rascall flatts song, "i won't let go" keeps popping in my head...

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

here's to hoping that watching three little men cannon ball into a pool will cheer my dad up tonight. i know it will make tom and me smile!

may father's day be everything you make of it.
may you enjoy each and every day you have with your children.